WOW> its been DAMN long since i last written my blog. Practically in this period of time, i have a lot of stuffs to talk about. BUt some of which are supposedly tracked down. LOL. thats why i am not bothered to write on this blog. Seriously i should write a personal journal. Its better this way.

Its been a on and off thing in my training. Sometimes it will be extremely busy, sometimes you just bore yourself to death. This happens quite often and i certainly feel quite pissed off.Especially recently, when my ears had this problem. all the sounds seemed muffled. and when ppl are screaming, you just feel damn irritated. not bcause of the racket they are making but by the fact that ur ears aren't functioning as they are supposed to.

yeah. and i quite pisssed off with myself. i not sure how to express it. but i think if i continue playing games at home, i will lose touch with something more impt than that. if i can dare to continue my journey into the unknown why can't i step up to tell her i like her. I think too much sometimes. just be simple minded.

And the army is fun because of the ppl inside it. after many ppl went out of course, i feel that the people in the platoon is much more united and interested to finish as a whole. and i feel good!!! its because of the motivation i provide for my section. HAHA. so far the group of us have not OOC yet which i feel proud of. I know one must pull through the course and complete army. then we can be a responsible person, not only as a working adult but as a FATHER and A HUSBAND.
somehow u feel irritated by people who doesn't face reality like a man. its impossible u think. how can ppl who shun away from obstacles have a GIRLFRIEND. thats the worse thing. it makes me feel PISSED.

maybe there is someone out there just waiting. waiting for fate. but is there? will there ever be fate? or is it a just an excuse for those who prefer to wait lying down and be lazy about their own life?? its just that such thoughts can drive one to the edge of the world. BUT, we have to take things in stride believing that someday, it will come. strange but true. ur heart will have such feeling.

(: next time update again.

this is my 4th day of MC. tml will be the last. i can't believe how weak i am. immune system down from field camp. down with flu, fever and cough. went doctor twice and booked an appointment. feels lethargic. but should be able to recover when i book in tml evening.

i looked through facebook and saw some of my friends. WOW. i think they look very grown up compared to last time i saw them. i think much good looking. i guess age is a contributing factor. alamak.

i havent written a post since ages. approximately 9 weeks. the last post was written before i went into army.

i promise the readers a long post.

when i enter the army, i felt excited and apprehensive over the next several weeks. i came early on that day, met joel on the ferry. haha. that was pretty lucky. not only did i meet him i met 2 of my aj classmates. then there was the swearing in infront of our parents. that really marked the opening of my life in BMT. Got to eat lunch with mum and dad before they left.

then the story unfolds...

i went to get sorted out to different companies and then my own respective platoon. i was hoping i get some of my jc classmates into my platoon. BUt i got more. lol. amazingly, joel was in the same platoon as me. that was something i enjoyed throughtout the whole of my BMT. he is a very close friend as we were in the same scout trooop for 4 years. thats like super long compared to the 8 weeks in BMT.

the confinement week was pretty much about adjusting to the army life. okay i realised that i can sleep early and wake up early. But thats very different compared tot he lifestyle b4 the army. and my section got 3 aj ppl including me. haha. amazingly one of the guy's gf is in my class. lol. so thats really quite 'qiao'. initally i was quite quiet in teh section but as the days passsed, i begin to talk more.(:

after the end of the 2 weeks, my parents and grandma were waiting for me at tekong. Man, the ladies were emotional. haha. they can't believe that they are seeeing me. or at least thats what i felt. haha. they were almost on the verge of crying. i felt a tinge of emotion. i not sure how to describe. maybe relieved that i have such good family support. that was when i felt quite happy(:

then booking in was quite sians. i mean as when you book out to enjoy life outside you tend to won't feel like going in especially if u don't get to see the person you want to see. haha.

there were a lot of activities during NS. some memorable ones were recruits, oc evening,grenade and rifle. haha. some cannot be commented though. it is indeed fun to have the experience of doing something that you don't usually do. rather excited and nervous lo. then some more i got sweaty palms. i dunno whether it will slip from my hand(the thought from my head last time)
rifle = no comments. i suck at it though.=)

ah.... and there were the route marches. haha. quite fun. carrying the heavy field pack. and the agr, strength training,30-60,bcct.

finally it all came to an end. i miss my mates but more impt i mimss my family members. i guess some of my friends as well. ah. but a lot of u guysa are stilll busy. i guess. take care. and do well for your upcoming obstacles. (:

this will be my last post before i go into the army tml. feels excited though. want to see more of camp stuff and grow stronger as a person. challenge myseslf mentally too.. lol. yeah. but my leg injury problem is getting better. but still it pains. ah i guess i have to put myself through mental tests to block any physical pain.seriousky, it hurts. everytime i run i feel the bone jutting out. ah. ah. maybe exercising more will help.

i will be confined for 2 weekends. haha. guess my life will move on to another chapter le. one much more exciting. luckily i report in the afternoon. can wake up late. but i am helping my dad in the morning ba. better.cannot sleep too late either. (:

to those friends who still read my blog, well, take care and have fun. 3 weeks without me will seem like an eternity but for some, i will be forgotten. (:

DAMN. i been rubbing couterpain on my shin for the past 3 days. i ran the past 3 days except today because i feel stress on my legs. i stopped sports for a while but i can't figure out whats the problem. the pain occurs somewhere near my bone. can feel a small lump. i guess i will have to rest for a few days before continuing my training. if anyone can tell me how to resolve the pain, i will be greatly appreciated for your kind advice and help.

tml i booked the court for my friends to play badminton. unfortunately, i can't join them since i have to help my dad on checking the new stocks that arrived from china. so i expect a busy day tml. the court is from 9 -11am. so anyone wants to come can come.

yeah. my army life is begins on 13th april. not much time left to meet people le.hai. happily waiting for army to come.

this few days i have been helping my dad to distribute shoes to needy students. its quite entertaining since i get to see different kinds of people. but one thing for sure most of them has small feet which i think is quite alluring.(:

anws, i shall do more p.t. i heard from my brother that entering ocs has many factors. Fitness is important but leadership qualities and knowledge are still impt. yup so i will try hard so that our family has 2 officers. but that is certainly no gurantee because competition is tough.

what are the things that will remain pure over the years? i wonder i wonder. certainly not structures that are exposed to rain and sun. Also not the furnitures that are being placed at home. what about the computer i am staring into now? Even the earth wont remain the same throughout the years. i wonder.

there will be a time in your life when you realised that you can accept responsibilities. this is the time of my life when i need to do more; accept more roles in life.

its strange how i feel this way. sometimes you tend to follow your heart than your head. but i know my heart tells me what to do. its been so long. maybe a few months but i can't believe that i succumb to thinking of you.

anyway today i went to play badminton with kengyang.jialiang,ffifi,kokwei and jing han. (: on a winning streak. havent lost for many many rounds. yeah. kudos to fifi for being such a badminton player.

went to kokwei's house after tt. played some mj and won. but that feeling really cant be compared to what i am feeling now. @#^%*&

hope u coping well now. its gonna be a stressful period.