hai..

i deserved all this ba..

thinking about it makes me the greatest fool on the Earth..

totally depressed..

if good frenz come and pass so easily.. then i would rather not make frenz anymore.. hai.. it is so diffcult to mantain a healthy relationship wif all my good frenz.. i feel disappointed.. i think i failed..

as life goes on, all of us will be very tired.. will us take a break, pick up the phone and call ur good frenz.. will we? In this world, these people are becoming rare..

some people are selfish, some are lazy, some just dun want, some could simply careless... i know my frenz are not.. i will simply believe in what i think is right..

the greatest weakness/ flaw in me:
i trust my frenz a lot.. i have never doubt our frenship.. i will do almost everything for my frenz.. i guess sometimes i been taken for a ride... i will not hesistate to sacrifice if i know u are worth it.. hai...

i shall wait..

Labels: The Heart Aches

hmm.. i just changed my blog to the new one.. i mean the mode..

guess i won't be blogging that much.. cos no one is reading.. so i dun think blogging works..

people's heart will ache terribly if one keeps thinking too far.. so i shall stop thinking..

Labels: dead meat

yo guys... i am back from china..

there are many tales from china.. haha.. it was an enjoyable trip..

you can call me to ask the details..

i'll do a quick summary.

summary

nose - almost dead from sniffing the smoke.. the people smoke alot... can't stand it.. may even puke..

eyes- see too much things le.. there are so many things hanging out on display.. my eyes can't possibly capture them all.. so now my eyes hurt...

heart-deeply in pain.. cos i keep thinking about someone.. then my dad ask me whether i have gf.. lol.. so i told him no.. i guess she was the first person i send sms to when i return back.. even
i nvr sms my mum to tell her to fetch me..

stomach- enjoyed the most.. there were a lot of good food. a pity i can't eat everything.. and the menus are in chinese.. so i don't know what to order..

lips- dried up v.fast.. cracked a few times.. hai..

face- dried up very fast.. but in s'pore also dried up le.. my mum say the oil in my face no more.. i think i am saving the oil for my fren taking major exams.. = )

hmm.. pondering/deeply in thought/remnicising/thinking/missing? someone..

i guess if i don't tell what i suppose to tell.. i surely regret my decision

today work was extremely tiring.. very..

well, i guessed my sister has a bf already.. hmm.. nvr tell me....

haha.. if someone is indecisive, i am sure i am too.. ky keep asking me stranger questions.. guess i dunno what to say..

even if guy A misses girl B.. girl B might not necessarily miss guy A..

won eagles award.. but winning is not everyhing.. cos i think haaving you by my side.. is much more impt than anything else..



Leann Rimes： How Do I Live Without You
Faye：I Want To Know
Leann Rimes： How Do I Breathe Without You
Faye：If You Ever Go
Leann Rimes： How Do I Ever
合唱： Ever Survive　How Do I　How Do I　How Do I Live

hmm.. today i am drenched thrice in heavy rain..

first.. is when i walk from lot one to plaza.. but stopped halfway.. because it is really heavy.. then i still went to plaza and wait for jia liang and mervin..

2nd... is walking from queensway shopping centre to the bus stop.. so heavy.. my new shoes almost got wet...

3rd is when i walked from my bus stop to my house.. the rain stopped.. then suddenly it poured.. punishing me..

i am inviting ppl for BBQ.. classmates , sisters and scouts..

liverpool won 3-0.. i scored..

this few days seem very tire.. today my mum treat me to pizza at pizza hut.. cool.. personal pan.. and crunchy temptations.. sweet but i don't have a sweet tooth.. i dunno how to enjoy ba..

i guess some part of what sze ming say is right.. don't worry.. but its rather weird.. still cannot figure out..

maybe the lyrics from shrek movie is a bit what i feel..

"so she said what is the problem baby
whats the problem i don't know
well maybe i am in love...
can't stop thinking about it..
how much longer will it take to cure this?"


well i guess the secret ""about after the o levels"" i will keep it to myself then.. its strange.. cos i usually tell the whole thing.. but i think it is rather useless to say out the whole thing now..


anyway i think my life will be short...
signs of early death:--baldness, severe coughing, sudden memory loss, botches over me..

perhaps an early death is a good thing.. less stress..

wth i have some posts that is posted in another blog.. dunno y posted there..

next time i decided not to play lancraft or mahjong.. i'll just watch..

i think i m still thinking ba.. thinking about what can never happen.. am i really that unfortunate.. hai..

hmm.. tomorrow is the results for the PAE. it means whether i can get into the JC of my choice, for short.. lets pray.. i can get in..

forbidden love? one cannot have a relationship with their friends past.. hmm.. or was it because one is too afraid of a relationship?

the year's conclusion. i want to thank many people; friends,"foes"(i can't think of any),teachers,sisters,admirers(i am so bhb), the people who bought and brought my bday cake and made it so successful.

hm.. got up early today to go to work.. but at 1030 went back home from workplace.. ytd caught in rain for 2 hrs plus... then hit 40 degree.. can't even blog properly or think properly.....

hmm.. my job is tough.. running around in heavy rain.. only worsen my condition...

in life, i am always very competitive.. winning things.. but if i have some1 by my side, i'll give it all up.. juz to have that someone..

earning $$ is tough.. so spend wisely.. dun anyhow spend.. learn to be thrifty..

weird.. i check my email today and someone fake my identity to register me as a youtube account user..

all i know the person who did that is someone who does not know how to spell.. i think it is one of my friends ba.. perhaps this is meant to be a joke.. he registered me as "gearrad123" what a pathetic name.. obvioulsy don't know how to spell.. and 123 is not a nice number... no sense...

well... i guess over the several days.. i know of something.. i know the ppl who are impt to me ba.. i hope next time when i continue my journey, i will still be able to contact them.. esp those that are not in the same school with me..

take cares for those in camps.. cya.

scouts camp was definitely exciting.. and enjoyable.. many things to say.. but i am lazy to write.. first time i feel so lazy..
the food was the best.. then PT was fun.. went to watch andy lau's movie, the battle of wits.. went to steamboat.. wow..

first to read the chinese words in my blog.. in your internet explorer.. go to VIEW then encoding, select UNicode (UTF-8)

this is my 2nd post of the day.. simply because i want to talk about 再说一次我爱你(say i love you one more time or zai shuo yi ci wo ai ni).. this is a rather long post..

this story starts off with the doctor always very busy with work and his wife always waiting for him.. His wife is very devoted , always waiting for him. Yet the doctor, ANdy Lau, always say tomorrow he will spend more time with her.. it the 108th tomorrow did the girl met with an accident. her heart was donated to a sick woman..

Six years later, Andy was an ambulance officer so as to save people and help others.

one night, he was on duty and a car smashed on the sign post on the highway. in the beginning, he asked the driver to drive away. but something in him made him turn back. he then went to save the woman.

The world is so small. or simply call it fate. the girl who purposely crash her car on the signpost--- her heart was actually Andy's Wife one's. so andy tried to find out whether the woman really has his wife's heart. After he found out, he decided to take care of her to amend his "wrong-doings".

Andy looks very similar to the husband of the ill woman. the ill woman had a heart transplant. the husband of the ill woman was chased away by herself because she did not want both to feel unhappy.

andy grab the cahnce to show her what is love. then brought her all the festivals(chinese new year, lantern festival, christmas,valentines day,april's fool). she was touched.

little did andy knew that the ill woman already know that andy was not her real husband. She wrote in her diary thanking andy for his kindness and showing her love. she wrote in her diary that she will use andy's wife identity to tell andy to take care and to be strong and say i love you to andy one more time..


onclusion: i think this story is touching. i learnt one lesson in life. never take things for granted. rarely will chances befall you the 2nd time. grab the chances before it is too late. don't be like Andy (in the movie) and me.. you will really regret it.

All the best for everyone. and watch this movie.

ok.. today's soccer was rather eventful.. it is the arena of injuries.

4/10 injury
hong wei - broken specs and head bleeding
mervin - cut on hand and leg
jia liang - deep cut and bruise leg
kok wei - cut and sprain
zi hao - nothing
Stevie G - torn muscle

woot.. i can stop thinking of running le.. damn pain when i walk..

i guess i won't blog for the next few days.. and i shall write out the ending for the story..

A question was asked, "is there anything more beautiful in life than a girl and a boy clasping clean hands and pure hearts in the path of marriage? Can there be anything more beautiful than young love?"
the answer is yes, there is a more beautiful thing. It is the spectacle of an old man and an old woman finishing their journey together on that path. Their hands are gnarled, but still clasped; their faces are seamed, but still radiant; their hearts are physically bowed and tired, but still strong with love and devotion for one another. Yes there is a more beautiful thing than young love.Old Love.

i guess my"sister" will now understand ba.. i shouldn't disturb her anymore.. so this is for you..

bye!

very hungry now.. haven't eaten..

what the ... my brother has bbq and the food isn't up yet..

Ama was right.. it is proven theory that 6 sixteen year old scouts cannot be together.. today was very lame.. very.. at sentosa.. at least i cheered up.. but still there is an empty feeling.. i not sure wad is it too..

i guess i should sit back and relax..

the question still not answered yet..

hmm.. now is 301 am.. i can'y sleeep.. i d unno why i was awaken.. having sleepless nights.. can't sleeep.. xos i dunnno why so empty.. juz feel very empty.. like a body without soul.. but this is not about love.. hmmm..weird.. maybe i am not used to not studying.. haha,,,
perhaps it been too long since i call someone else and talk.. well i guess everyone is busy.. who would have time for an ogre like me.. must adapt..

this week has been a hectic one... yesterday badminton and basketball.. today badminton, swimming and pool.. tomorrow go sentosa with scouts.. sunday soccer... next week camp plus concert and prom..

very tired le.. cannot think properly..

i figure that this time i want to be more discreet about my feelings..

i guess me and tim makes a good combo for badminton.. And i SEE the bonds between the 4/10 guys.. very good indeed.. talk crap in the wave pool, the jacuzz and at Mac Donald..

today is a call for celebration.. leonard not in singapore.. just joking... at least there is something less to worry about.. or have i decided not to care?..

the feeling is empty.. but i need time to find out why..