WOW> its been DAMN long since i last written my blog. Practically in this period of time, i have a lot of stuffs to talk about. BUt some of which are supposedly tracked down. LOL. thats why i am not bothered to write on this blog. Seriously i should write a personal journal. Its better this way.

Its been a on and off thing in my training. Sometimes it will be extremely busy, sometimes you just bore yourself to death. This happens quite often and i certainly feel quite pissed off.Especially recently, when my ears had this problem. all the sounds seemed muffled. and when ppl are screaming, you just feel damn irritated. not bcause of the racket they are making but by the fact that ur ears aren't functioning as they are supposed to.

yeah. and i quite pisssed off with myself. i not sure how to express it. but i think if i continue playing games at home, i will lose touch with something more impt than that. if i can dare to continue my journey into the unknown why can't i step up to tell her i like her. I think too much sometimes. just be simple minded.

And the army is fun because of the ppl inside it. after many ppl went out of course, i feel that the people in the platoon is much more united and interested to finish as a whole. and i feel good!!! its because of the motivation i provide for my section. HAHA. so far the group of us have not OOC yet which i feel proud of. I know one must pull through the course and complete army. then we can be a responsible person, not only as a working adult but as a FATHER and A HUSBAND.
somehow u feel irritated by people who doesn't face reality like a man. its impossible u think. how can ppl who shun away from obstacles have a GIRLFRIEND. thats the worse thing. it makes me feel PISSED.

maybe there is someone out there just waiting. waiting for fate. but is there? will there ever be fate? or is it a just an excuse for those who prefer to wait lying down and be lazy about their own life?? its just that such thoughts can drive one to the edge of the world. BUT, we have to take things in stride believing that someday, it will come. strange but true. ur heart will have such feeling.

(: next time update again.