.... yesterday co nite was so so le... can see that they put in effort... the co's have a change of uniforms.... cool.... ah.. macdonalds have chicken fan-tastic... not bad... pretty nice... the bread is rice.. which makes it more fillling.... i decided that... i will wait for yx.. means i m booked...(reserved).. lol.. and for ppl wondering the strange chracters at the time i blogged.. is "i love u" in chinese... but blogs cannot decipher the code... then if can is traditional chinese.. going to see her soon.. lol..

wa... todae.. bowling.. 153!!! yay my record now.. i have yx to thank.. cos they sae turkey( 3 consecutives strikes) then i really did it wif her in my mind.. yay...

b4 i start on anything. I wanna apologise to every single friend..
I do not know why.. but i feel there is a need..to all my classmates who tinks i m a snob.. i m sorry for giving u this impression.. Sorry

well i think if u know me well enuf.. u will think i m a great friend.. but if u do not know me well u will tink i m acting like a snob.. apologies.. i m a guy who likes to joke around... but serious when i mean business... i often show a very hard character to people.. but i offer a great companion inside my heart.. i knows its very contradicting.. but i have to clear this off my mind.. before starting afresh..

liverpool are doing excellent now.. they r thrashing newcastle... so many chances... and most impt-ly i scored.. at13:01 mins... lolx... morrientes wif a brilliant header but cleared off by defender's hand... wow.. amazing...

and i dunno y my heart is still linked.. hai.. i mean my eyes twitch.. i tink when she gets happy or sad.. then i know i did smething wrong.. hai..(talking crap... i know where got telepathic wan) i will wait.. even on the next dae.. the next day... and the next day... i dunno where i get this determination from.. lolx.. maybe from fi(-.-")fi.. i will carry on the decision.. follow my bro's footsteps(even i dunno wad he did that lasted this long)... and hope the heaven will be moved.. and let fate interwined... haha... thinking too much..

telepathic.. i tink it exists.. dunno.. wif my family.. i can't understand why.. when they r out wif shopping grocery.. they know wad to buy exactly i was thinking at that point of time... mere coincidence? hmmm... maybe? but that happened alot of time.. and other situations as well... weird... i tink all the quarrelings wif family made them more concern thus forging a stronger bond.. excellent..

Your type is the Girl Next Door
Cute, fun, and sweet, your ideal gal is just a stone's throw away — she's the Girl Next Door. She's Sandra Bullock, Doris Day, and Meg Ryan all rolled up into one. Naturally pretty rather than glamorous, she's unpretentious and generous. She loves animals and children, and is great with both. You're attracted to her strong values and traditional ways. Although she demands a lot of respect, she's not particularly high-maintenance. Her ideal date is more likely to be dinner and a movie than heading out for a night on the town. She's careful yet spontaneous — a little bit of the Guy's Girl, a smidge of Sorority Sister (the nice kind), and just a hint of the Hippie Chick. But she's got an appeal that's all her own, which is why you can't stay away. Her winning smile, bright eyes, and loving nature make you want to hold on tight and never let go.

wa.. very true....

Loh, when you're head over heels, you are a Steady Mate

You're the kind of romantic partner that others truly count on in times of distress. This is true because your logical mind allows you to remain cool-headed during crises. Because people look to lean on you, you will sometimes be viewed as a hero in your relationships. People who value your calm, rational nature will make a great match for you.
Love does change you. Whether it simply enhances who you already are, or makes you a completely different person, finding someone whose love personality compliments your own makes for the longest, happiest relationships.

a pity she dun tink so...

hmm topic was gonna be about spirits.. not those ghost wan la.. or those kinds of things la.. lolx.. was suppose to be like team spirit.. but i had to address another issue...

love.. there r actually many kinds of love.. family love... brotherly love.. sisterly love... crushes... puppy loves.. dates.. infatuations... serious relationships... and many other more...

i know when i like some1.. those feelings of commitment.. ah.. actually i cannot deny to the fact i had ex.. i dun wish to talk bout it le.. speaking of commitment i felt more like a fool instead.. alwaes thinking that there is true love... ah... once bitten twice shy.. so... u can understand my feelings..

does simple love exist? i dun tink too far.. simple love is juz guy loves gal.. gal loves guy.. and lived happily ever after... 3 sentence only.. yet it tells us alot of things.. they r committed and understands each other very well... their invisble barrier has been broken.. those barrier.. once broken u can feel love.. lol.. out of topic..

i understand that all people will feel shy le.. today read the sundays times article.. bout kissing b4 16... amazing... so many ppl likes to kiss.. lolx.. wonder wads so good... i nvr tried it b4.. let alone holding hands... means i have nvr held a gal's hand b4.. only when practisin for sec 3 campfire.. that was the only time.. so its like quite special.. i cannot bite off more than i can chew le.. so wad happened in the past was fairy tale.. and will not be repeated..

to me.. love is jus like being committed to the partner.. giving full of concerns.. not giving exp presents.. love some1 truly.. its juz undefined.. hai.. and yet.. simple love is so hard to find.. i had found the other one... but...ru guo yuan fen hai mei dao...ru guo yuan fen hai mei dao? jiu yao deng... in simpilcity for the previous sentence is " if fate has not arrived yet... then we have to wait.."

love is not juz about that tingling sensation when u see the person u like.. is about staying wif the person through thick and thin... cos if u dun see why there is a need then once u grow old u will not like the person.. its juz defeats the purpose.. beauty is in the eye of the beholder..

i hope that my dream might come true.. but i m willing to let go...if love hurts... i dun wish to see ppl hurt for personal selfish gains.. yet such a golden opportunity.. i know wad to do when e times come... those who know me inside out.. will know wad i will do too.. dun worry.. i gonna be a super high extreme optimistic person..

gonna be christmas soon.. and yet.. she accomplished her mission.. my decision has nvr change from the beginning til now.. i know i was at fault.. and i shall repent..

i feel that my spirit is like a boxer(not myuthai boxer)... those wif wad u call that gloveS or wadeva le..i believe my endurance can last me long.. but i m not the strongest nor i m the weakest... ic annot foreva hold on in this situation... i held up my boxing gloves to fend off the attacks.. once i fall i come back up again... to fend for myself... i need a break... when the bell rings for stoppage.. my opponent sits wif many helping him while me wiping off my sweat alone. that opponent sitting opposite me is myself. i have been beaten by fear, by myself. now i m going in wif renewed determination.. i m not going to lose anymore.. success is sweet. defeat is bitter. for too long i have tasted bitterness in the life. i have walked through many aspects from life. i now need to summon my strengths and worked on my wekanesses. once the new year begins, it will be a different me. the one who nvr stops fighting in his spirit. and i m not those who take revenges. i will be the one who bao ga liao.. success doesn't come easily. it is not to waited for it is to be grabbed and achieved. the hunger of success is growing within me. it nvr dissipates. my eyes r livid wif hunger for success. the lion in my heart is calling.i feel it. i wan success in everything and maybe in love. and my character is that i will rather ppl be happy. how enigmatic?
i urged all my frenz to taste success. i have long forgotten that taste. its juz like something u haven do. and u wanna succeed. successes r part of everones' life. i feel adrenaline rushing back to me.that beat. that sound. but i will still continue to care for ppl. means my character will be changin to a square shape.

from young i have alwaes loved challenges. the harder it is, the more i like. but now wif encouraging the heart. i will combine these 2 to form a stronger self. wadeva i do now or in the past i consider how the people's feelings are affected... esp to my frenz... i had helped strangers b4.. i feel evolution in my heart in my body in my soul.. *thump thump* that heart beat nvr change so is my positive side.. strive. wad does not counts is the size of the dog in the fight but the size of the fight in the dog.

i may not be the best. but i m willing to be the best of wad i can achieve. and i believe that everyone has a huge potential yet to be discovered. i have uncovered some so i m now looking for the rest. i only hope she can find it wif me.

Your color is black. The color of night. Serene and mysterious, black conjures up images of elegant evening gowns, dashing tuxedos, and gleaming limousines. Traditionally a symbol of success, black also represents power and an uncompromising demand for perfection. Not surprisingly, you tend to set challenging goals for yourself and do whatever it takes to achieve them — your strength of character is second to none. This unfaltering determination, along with your natural elegance, impresses people. But keep in mind that your personality might be intimidating to some. Try to temper your demanding side with a little softness — trust us, it won't kill you. Overall, though, black is the color of professionalism and achievement, which means it's clearly the color for you.

slept at 7 pm yesterday.. didn't feel like waking up todae.. but todae is a fresh new day.. i muz let incurable optimism take over me again... though i had that tingling sensation inside me. i feel sad and happy for my choice, so idecided yet another choice... hai.. no one will know my choice any longer.

today was supposedly an enjoyable dae.. but it went downright disappointing.. the problem lies wif me that is.. for those who dunno anything.. i'll tell u a story later... but first.. the prefet was enjoyable.. cos i talked to many parents and helped alot.. as sai kang rsm.. lolx..

then bowling.. i was fuming.. quite.. and vented my anger on those bowling balls... score my high of 135 or 136.. quite poor la..

the story is like this.

.there was this very ugly guy. he cannot do things right. he always stumble when he was given an opportunity. Once, he was passed wif this rose called hope by a good fren of his ,kyiaoernoalnjdutak. he was supposed to water it night and day wif all his time and concern. a pity he only did half of his part. he was too busy, never stopping for once for his family, his frenz , his hobby. Yet he nvr water the rose to his might. His frenz tried to help him , mainly his gd frenz esp viufanrtuiayrisa. But that rose needed more than that. he tried to water yet unsuccessfully. the rose grew further distance away. and there was nth that guy could do. until the fateful day,dec 23, arrives, the rose withered in his presence. forcing him to be miserable. why would he not have taken his chance to water. If only. he could turn back the time. he aws downcasted. he would like to change fate but everything was history. the guy would like to apologise to his frenz for wasting time and to the rose whom he soughlty admired. once withered it can't return. unless a miracle of all miracles happened. i doubt his frens want this.

hai.. i know she is awake but where got people call so late in the night wan.. hmm... the day is drawing closer and closer.. i miss her.. lolx.. no idea why...
i feel that heart is linked le.. somehow... somewhat.. something... nt sure why..
btw the nominees of head prefects are announced... the ex co is announced... the programmes for nxt year is announced.. part of it.. sai kang on fridae.. dunno y sai kang part of my life now...
lolx..
hope friday dismiss earlier.. dun wanna miss that real impt thing..
hope everyone is well.. and all fren good luck nxt year.. and fifi who still at indo to enjoy herself.. frenz a beginning of a new year we shall start things afresh together as one.. i have high expectations of my frenz too.. i want them to succeed as a person in life.. the people in newspaper is those who tried, failed and tried again.. they r the ones who r brave enuf to try and conquer.. and there is nth to stop me and my frenz too ...

i have done many things for my frenz...some took me as granted, some dun even know, some appreciated and a few thinks i m blabbering nonsense at only some times... but i can tell my frenz right in your facse wad i want is for ur own good.. if u all can carry on saying "i suck' or "wadeva things ".. i can only be disappointed..
some say its good to pay it forward.. some say wad u treat others is the way u wanna be treated back.. its true and there is nth i can do.. xcept to be like the boy..

lol... i was pissed off wif the other time.. can i ask readers to try and understand how it feels to do something quite impossible wif a task by 1 person before tryin to tell me their opinions.. we were all tired.. but its doesn't matter now..i dun wish to know wad happened that nite..
seriously somethings aren't worth mentioning.. there r many kinds of possible consequences.. i had expressed my concerns to people bout this matter and i know wad to do. i feel its a waste of time bringin it up to mr tan..

halet was very enjoyable but after my fren told me something then i couldn't believe my ears.. very weird...

the next topic i m talking about is concerning the people in the whole.. readers pls dun misread..
sometimes people( let say a) are better than some people(let say b) in certain ways.. while B may have certain bettter qualities then A.. everyone is of diff qualities.. whether they r musically inclined or physically inclined... if the people runs well, we admired them... u hope to run as well as them.. if a person's perception is that the runners are hao lian.. they will nvr go far.. cos the pessimist always see the hole of the doghnut.. its all about u perceive things as..

its simply okay for frens to badmouthed bout their frenz and for their frens to criticise back or in anyother way.. they r those who dun seem like improving.. whether u wan to change is up to u.. i can tell u that i have criticised one of my good frenz b4 and now he changes his mentality.. and on the verge of becoming hp.. this happens to those who r willing to change.. this r not impossible... everything is possible..

and for frenz out there wif big hearts... if u all can endure continue enduring.. but do not let fren step over u.. esp when ur frens have mood swings..forget it to those who tinks i m blabbering round and have nth better to do..wad i believe is strong...
"the world is advancing rapidly. if u need to stay at the top of the world, you do not need only skills,knowledge and physical capabilities, u need to prove it"...

disappointing... but campfire was good..
xue yi and xue yee did very well for emcees la.. then scouts and guides work hard to cheer together... dat was commending... everyone put in their effort... i saw that..
but i was still fucked up.. pissed off more likely..i can assured u that i carry the most tables and benches add up together... and yet still helped to do more.. wtf..
why? why? i went to close the shutters wif joel.. and yet ppl say open the shutter to scout den and still not prepared to take things up... i was the only fucker there... i shouted for help.. no one replied until my 3 or 4 th try? WTF man.. we alwaes sae we should support each other ma... why u all dun come and yet 2 ppl juz sat down there... u know is si bei du lan anot... i dunno why la.. maybe u all think u did alot liao.. but have u ever spare thoughts for the others anot... i dun understand y ppl r so selfish... only when my dad drove in.. and shouted at the scouts then they come.. i m so disappointed lo.. wads this attitude of nt helping.. when i saw lin ruey having troubles wif the spars i shouted for help for him.. yet no one was there.. i went there to help him... then everything i do myself la.. u all dun wanna support me... is this the kind of respect i get even if i m not at the highest position... i dun understand why u all cannot help le.. at least brian and dominque help me and joel to carry the 3 rd table from 2 nd lvl... And yet the person i tried calling is supposed to be the one wif good leadership qualities..and still sitting down.. while i was the only person there... hey i m not SUPERMAN rite... why do i alwaes have to be the one..
and i m not getting that respect... i dun belieev it le.. if the one who has the highest authority does not set the example how can the juniors folllow... then i m also the only one to collect coconut husks.. while those not doing anything slack..
how would u all know how i felt.. cb le.. doing things myself.. at first nvm.. but now feeling v.v.v. cb.. i can't believe it...
then my parents come home and scold me.. nb le.. like everything i do to my fullest is like that..

hmmm... life is strange... working so hard.. and no results seeen yet.. nvm... beautiful works requires longer time and dun long for the results yet... wait for it... dae by dae i tink **** getting uncomfortable ba.. but nvm... i shall see... blah... btw i dunno how to talk to gals.. or is it? maybe i dun feel comfortable wif gals.. haha... its called once bitten twice shy ma... how do i know feelings r true... blah... but i shall try again.. strive for wad once i know it was true love... hmm.. my target... and so is 6 points... haha...

wow... finally my computer is back.. actually i have alot of things to say for national pattrol camp.. but i juz forgotten.. i haven had that courage to call ppl anymore... too scare... wish ppl could juz give me the green light to call her..