hmm.. well.. i think i am not good enough ba..

nah.. think simple..

I need you to help me to answer this question. "Is there anything more beautiful in life than a boy and a girl clasping clean hands and pure hearts in the path of marriage? Can there be anything more beautiful than young love?"

i am sure someone knows the answer.. and i need you to tell me.

hmm.. sick again.. went to work for half day.. sore throat plus minor fever... lol.. i doubt anyone knows...

anyway.. scouts camp gonna be very fun.. from school hike to victoria concert hall then hike to sentosa? lolx.. anyway the concert is fully paid by MR tan.. wow.. that is fabulous... shiok i must say..they say to watch out for day 2 of the scouts camp... only one word to describe day 2.. and the word is "HIONG"..haha.. the committee are sick..

hmm.. i doubt no one will ever call me again ba.. lolx..

lol.. i want to become monk.. cos there will be no emotions..

hmm.. sometimes love can just be so complicated.. i iwsh for something simple.. lol.. nothing more.. but i think such love never exist.. but if we view from another viewpoint, we can see that love bring people much closer..

hmm.. i missed camps.. usually i will rule the camps, prhaps because of my ability to adapt to changes very quickly. i love camps.. i will be much more alert... not sure why.. but that is my disposition..

anyway.. scouts camp gonna be very fun.. fun indeed..

today my sis went to camp ba.. hmm.. raining today.. so surely will be very cold de.. hope she remembers to keep herself warmth.. and that she enjoys herself..

work was extremely tiring again.. there were simply too many people... served the people from 9am to 3pm.. i know another FIFI... lolx. i think la.. or issit PHIPHI?

hai.. today u were feeling very sad ba.. something troubling ur ehart.. how i wish i could share ur burden.. cos i dun wanna see u so unhappy.. we are sibling ma..

i think i manage to scout a good shirt today.. but it is 99 dollars.. lolx..

stay healthy.. be strong..

hmm..... today work was very tiring... very.. cos there was a lot of people.. damn tiring... feel like sleeping but i can't.. muz play.. lolx..

i wonder when is scouts camp?.. looking forward ba.. and my trip to China.. sure will be very exciting..

hope to go into ANDERSON JUNIOR COLLEGE... ah.. but the only thing i hope for is for u.. u will know who i am talking about ba.. u surely know.. haha.. but (quoted from her) "lets see where fate will bring us"? ha-ha..

er.. i think i miss someone..

lol.. Hey DUDE! i am not blaming u or making you feel worse..

hai.. today play soccer.. thrashed the ppl 7-0..

sometimes promises are broken.. i feel sad..

it is true to my question posted in yesterday's post. but i expected it. it is just like a nightmare come true.

Three Words For Me: Forget Forget Forget.

Friends come and go. it is a universal fact.

shadows here i come, wait for me!!

hai.. loses a good friend today..

*one minute of silence*

not that my friend has gone physically.. but my friend has somthing to accomplish and i wish my friend all the best..

our friendship was not obtain easily.. it was through hardwork. but the friendship is gone so easily... no more outings no more talking crap.. just a pity..

Must people really enjoy happiness at the expense of ppl? i wonder.. perhaps so... sad but what to do.. never mind.. one must always sacrifice.. hai..

Goodbye!

sad.. sad.. over many reasons.

first after o leves is BORING... i haven't sleep for a very long time... how i wish to pick up my book and study.. OKAY i' just JOKING!!

next is because cannot spend more time with my friends. they already have their own plans. i am just the odd one out. the thorn among the roses. but still SOCCER on SUNDAY.

third, my friend is not back yet!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i miss her voice.. oh my god.. she is a close friend only..

when i listen to "dou shi ni" , i just realise something about love. for a person to define love , the person must go through love itself.. there are many definitions of love. sacrificial, one sided, cruel, true,blind, infatuation and many more..

a silly person like me is waiting for an angel to come into my life

i believe that angel will come soon. i don't know why but my heart tells me so.

HAHAHA... its all over.. time to move on to the next phase of my life.. WOOT~

4 years.. it is so fast.. just a blink of an eye... my life in secondary school is so exciting, full of laughter, sorrows, and some "meaningful" jokes.. i spent 3/4 of my time in school laughing..

Sec 1- came to 1/6.. the lowest aggregate score in the class.. looked extremely toot looking.. joined scouts as my first CCA.. my Seniors then LOVED me.. an aura i emanate.. lolx.. manage to top the first half of the year.. then lost to qin pei(most probably the top student of the year).. I was very quiet then.. So was PEng Yeow.. he was the first friend i knew.. and i kept forgetting his name.. then florence sat beside me.. and we always talk crap.. then keng yang was plump then. and he was the most talkative boy in the class and perhaps the whole level..i am sure only one person can match him.. no wonder they are a match made in heaven

sec 2- of course graduated to sec 2/6.. had a dismal love life.. pretty boring.. only enjoyed looking forward to scouts cause it is damn fun.. all laughter.. but of course still have torture by the seniors la.. but it is to develop RUGGEDNESS in us ma... started to play la.. then get very poor results but managed to go inside top 3 at the end of year..

sec 3- moved onto 3/10(the eventual best class of the year).. in the beginning the people don't talk much.. all very quiet.. then fitrina was very noisy.. always shouting.. see the link in my sec1 paragraph.. get to learn about the teachers.. mr tan l.h aka the very lame teacher, not that he cannot walk properly but his jokes are cold.. i think is good to laugh in class la.. then MRS philip, remember no 's',.. my first thought was that she was a very strict teacher who demands perfect work from us.. but she is a teacher who concerns alot about the students.. and she taught us well.. not just well but exceptionally well.. sec 3 was also the most busy year for me because of the many activities held in that year.. ***of course i remember the sec 3 camp.. the day i looked into her eyes..there were feelings between us.. something of which i won't say more..

sec 4 is perhaps the most exhilarating year... it is full of ups and downs.. and many arguements took place with my parents.. they say my results wasn't good enough... ok.. i accepted that and took it as a challenge.. i wanted to prove them wrong..
our class bonded very well especially the 5 tonne challenge(something i initiated)..haha.. then the class especially the boys got closer.. perhap cos the boys are more open to their feelings ba... i love the o levels.


WHo i WANT TO THANK:

the teachers, scouts, classmates, friends,

but special thanks to 3 exceptionally good friends. strange thing is they are all girls...

the first is FITRINA.. she is my partner in crime.. haha.. always crapping around.. in friendships, sacrifices were made. but the sacrifices were just an evidence to the golden friendship.she is the first in my studying group and over the 2 years, some left and some joined in. i think she cares alot about her friends too.but like i say friendship needs sacrifices too. if she doesn't know maths, she will call me.. and cry out very loud.. the first time was in sec3. i picked up the phone and i was shocked!!!!!! i thought what had happened to her.. later, she told me she don't know how to do maths..-.-".. that is what friends are for.. in a nutshell, i don't think we will be that close as friends anymore. soon she will be with a great man(Keng Yang), so i don't have to worry about her. i will get over it. lolx.. what is important is that she has found the RIGHT man.

next is yu xuan. she is a person of great virtue. i admired her of her many outstanding qualities.. she is hard working , cheerful, oratorical, and loves to make her friends laugh.. everytime i look at her, i know she is very happy and never fails to smile. she is demure and very mature. i have nothing against her. but sometimes there is no fate. when i looked at her on that eventful night, i saw something in her.. her potential to achieve great success.she was also too embarrassed on that evening.. hai. a pity i was just to scare to talk to her.. yu xuan is someone i model as a success. i work very hard to acheive the standards set by her because i want to the best person..

people say they save the best for last and i believe this saying too. she is also demure and always very cheerful. only once did i see her being very unhappy. she taught me how to handle life in different perspectives and also values which i have not forgotten. she always encourages me to work hard for my goals and always say 'jia you'. she is kind-heated in nature and sings well.haha. no link. she treasures friendships as much as a relationship because they are of equal importance to her. her voice is sweet. and she is also very lame.she has inherited this value from me and i ust say she learnt it well. of course she is pretty too. but beauty is in the eye of the beholder. she is the most beautiful person if you looked into her heart. so far in my life, i only met 2 persons with such great qualities. but the 3rd one is the better one. if you read this, remember to buy me tissues. only u know why. haha. this is our personal joke.


The greatest accomplishment in my life is not just winning awards, trophies, scholarships or getting tops. it is when people tell me how much i taught them in life. the satisfaction you get is so much greater than achieving awards because awards only speaks about your potential to study or your ccas, what your friends say speaks so much more than the awards. what your friends tell you speaks about your innate qualities, something awards cannot show. Another accomplishment is meeting my friends esp the 3....

good luck too all!!