PISSED or PLEASED?

depends on how i look at the situation.
being optimistic, some of us have admitted mistakes that they have committed.
But some of us will still commit the same mistake. this really sucks.ESpecially .....

i got no comments except

white choclate dream is nice. ty.

this is my 350th post ever since i started blogging.. lols. its like so long and yet so little posts. guess it is an achievement for a guy like me. doesn't blog much but still keep my blog intact.

i donno why i feel something missing from me. but i don't know what it is. it is like a missing jigsaw puzzle in my life, something which i can't comprehend. it is like a achievement of some sort. but i don't know what. i know if i don't do it, my life is never complete.i guess is the philantrophist spirit. ah sucks.

then today during dinner, we were talking about guys getting a gf before NS. One of us was saying that he would try to get a gf before NS but i don't know. such a thing is like something natural? u know it once u see it, its pretty difficult to tell who you'll like. and MY problem is that i won't go for girls that aren't long term r/s. if i were to find one, that will be my last. i ain't going to have a gf that is fickle-minded who changes who she likes often. "once bitten twice shy"

To like someone is so difficult, but once u like someone, it is even more difficult to forget. infatuation is short but love is something long lasting. Beauty can capture my attention, but it is the character that captures my heart.

JUST to clarify some matters. i haven't set my eyes on anyone yet.
my heart ain't confuse. is just that THE ONE hasn't arrived yet. maybe i know her, maybe i dont but i know i still don't have the particularly strong feelings for anyone yet.(btw, i am not gay(: )

(: mug hard A's are here. and good luck for the odacians going to rinjani. all the best.

today was suppose to be a fun affair.

soccer with mervin's brother friends. we totally owned. Ky,mervin,his bro,his bro's friend and me.i got nice assists. and a pretty goal(i always score thru nutmeg, dunno is luck or wad)

BUT the whole affair was messy after pushing and much quarrelling. i don't know wghat to do though. i am pretty much a spectator. It was quick i guess, and in the end i wasn't satisfied with the amount of time i played.hais.
btw do i look like homer simpson? mervin's bro thought i look like one. and he asked if whether people got say i look like him. LOL!!!!LOL!!!

today go nigel house. i guess i have ALOT of luck. is there some affinity between my hand and luck.? if so, then the one who can fill the gaps in between my fingers will be the luckiest.
because i helped huimin to recoup her losses and win back.for that round. sometimes i just can't help but to admire myself.

havent blog in a week, thats really going to kill me.

lots of things happened though. i shall cut the story short.

i mugged for econs and the paper on friday was not of the finest affair; i didn't have time to write my conclusion which means i lost my evaluation mark! (its supposed to be the easiest) the only thing i can hope is that i can score for my Q1 though but not entirely confident maybe because it is econs. i guess my econs is slowly improving, thanks to MS MAGGIE Q. (nice name, like an actress?). twsit my fingers and hope for the best

GP was on thursday. i guess i did not so well becuase i felt that i have misinterpreted the QN. i put too many marco level points and i guess i lost track of what i wrote and this accouonts to my poorly written script. Mr MOHAN is so gonna kill me especially when he wants me to improve. Damn me.=). but what has passed is the past, so no use thinking about it but to work harder.

ya this holidays is sure gonna be a mugging holiday.
class outing at orchard?
odac outing at je?
good luck dinner next next mon?
Ns medical check up?
teaching sessions?


all the way to the finishing line.
one hurdle at a time.

ytd went out with russ,marc,jx, and wh for dinner. lols. was pretty fun eyhs. "guys" talk. what happened in the conversation shall be kept as a secret then.

the strangest thing that happened to me today:

i was heading to my brother's new home when a man in his forties approached me. he was on a wheelchair and asked me for his help. Of course i obliged. He was very friendly and amicable. he talked alot to me and he taught me how to safely push him across the platform from the mrt and vice versa. i did pretty badly when i pushed him back to the platform-the front wheels got stuck in the gap. to his amazement, he also stopped at tiong bahru(my destination too). he talked about good karma being reciprocated usually i don't receive back. at least i did a good deed today. Its strange though that i encounter these people in life. it is not my first time. maybe, it is a sign. i felt extremely weird because instead of exiting MRT door A, i exited door B at raffles place. then i stood waiting for the MRT when the handicapped guy arrived. haha i really can't explain the strange phenomenon but i guess i meant to be at the right place at the right time.

my brother's place is nice. pretty creative house i love his tap. DAMN cool. instead of those normal tap, his tap is of similar resemblance of those in CK tangs hotel restrooms. maybe i can draw it out on paper.=)

during dinner, my bro talk about reading palms. and he told us if your ring finger is longer than ur index finger, you are suppose to be talented in sports. after looking at my fingers, i smiled to myself. i think my sports skills aren't pretty bad eyhs. i look at floorball, soccer, tennis, volleyball(the recent games i just played).. really i should have joined a sports cca in secondary school. But a pity my secondary school has no niche sports cca. i prefer team sports. individual?---chess maybe. i was once a national player. but that was pretty long ago, lost my skills. Uniform groups and ODAC are more disciplined and i guess the lessons i learn from there will ultimately benefit for time to come. though i wish to learn music so i can soothe an angry man.

Life is full of possiblities and choices. We choose our own path. We can only think of what would happen if we took another path, but we should learn to enjoy our decisions and bear the pain that comes with it. That is what life is about. I don't regret any decisions yet. But alll i know if i don't study well, i will certainly regret it. My hope of becoming a philantrophist will be dashed. (today's guest of honour talked about legacy, and wonder am i on the right path). often i want to have a legacy for life like Nobel prize? haha i don't know, i 'll just try my best and see where i land. the important thing is to try.

"Let me Win. But if i cannot win, let me brave in the attempt."~ special olympics oath.

Haaahaa.. i ran too much on friday and my legs hurt the following day.
ran 4.5 rounds on the track and also played soccer with the teachers. pretty cool eyhs the AJ teachers. i came when the score was 3-1 to my team. then they scored to make the score 3-2. but the keeper, lionel, the councillor, passed the ball which i intercepted. then like the wind, i charge towards him. Russell was running behind me. Before they clash against each other, i slipped the ball in between them and into the post( minature goal post). What a wonderful goal=)

And today, knowing that i have not recovered from the strain on my legs i went to play(FINALLY) with my sec school friends. MErvin who just recovered from a broken leg was there too. He and me formed the best partnership of the day. the 1-2s which totally misled all the opponents. and i assisted many and scored some goals. but u must always remember to mark me because one i reach the half way line, there will be a good chance i score.

the last goal of the day, before me mervin and kengyang went off, mervin and i played some slick passing before i slot the goal in. BUt that came with a price. I couldn't stop myself in time. and WHAM i hit the metal railings and crashed on my kness. sucks. the abrasions.

BUt thing to note is their gameplay has improved alot. especially Zi Hao, kengyang and kokwei. lols. but the most improvement was ZH and KY. they gave me a run for their money. but i was satisfied with my performance too. Influential=)

many things happened from the last time i blog. but i can't remember what i was suppose to blog. shoot. i think i am improving alot.

i know we havent met yet but when we do, it will be me-the best of it.
i guess i need to go through trials and tribulations before i reach u? haha. sounds love sick.

=) to whoever is out there, wait for me.

yikes dunno why i been sleeping alot lately. maybe i am just tired. hais. but i do need the strength..

anyway i am not fast enough yet. i havent develop my top speed. so must train..

tks for ur concern.

=)