sometimes u will find yourself in an extremely familiar situation again. this time round, you don't want the bad things to happen again. and is impossible to guard against such situation.. you are jus battling against your feelings. your feelings are the hardest to get through. only a cold hearted person can do it. i can't. and that is THE problem.

its a bit worrying. perhaps depressing too. i know its extremely difficult but if u don't try nothing will happen. not even that glimmer of hope. but when it fails, the nightmare u had will come back to haunt you eventually. depression will set in.

however, one should look at the positive effects if the situation turns out well. WHO KNOWS that if we try harder, we can be very successful.

fear is holding me back. if only the heart can rightly see what is essential, yet it is the essential that is invisble to the eye.

i need a sign.

To change my destiny; my fate.