Wednesday, December 28, 2005
b4 i start on anything. I wanna apologise to every single friend..I do not know why.. but i feel there is a need..to all my classmates who tinks i m a snob.. i m sorry for giving u this impression.. Sorrywell i think if u know me well enuf.. u will think i m a great friend.. but if u do not know me well u will tink i m acting like a snob.. apologies.. i m a guy who likes to joke around... but serious when i mean business... i often show a very hard character to people.. but i offer a great companion inside my heart.. i knows its very contradicting.. but i have to clear this off my mind.. before starting afresh..
Mistakes
i know that leo has given alot of help when i like her.. so did most of my frenz , like fifi.. i know its awkward to talk bout her infront of u guys.. but it is to hard to resist.. i will have more resistance from now on.. i know i had been too rush.. or my frenz had been.. it was my mistake.. cos of my behaviour that led them to this.. i know that now she has a very negative impression of me.. due to my mistake.. i know she won't come to the net to read blogs.. or her frenz coming to this page.. I wanna apologise to her frenz(cw,ht,wt,zh and a few more) and my frenz(unmentionable) for producing a wrong impression..i oso wanna say sorry to her.. cos of all the times they made fun of her.. from normal school days to sec3 camp to the 3 weeeks remedial lessons.. i know how it feels.. i feel sad for her.. i really wished to share her sorrow.. all she can was to put a smile.. that was brave of her.. her qualities are unfaltering..she has shown me qualities of a strong personality gal has.. i admired it.. i know she is a nice and gentle gal..thats y she is scare of things.. I m sorry..her close frenz might not approve me, i do not know.. but all i know she has a negative impression of me... and i know it was the factors of my frenz calling her.. and her family dun like it.. my family oso dun like it... i apologise to her family.. Sorry... she has grabbed my heart unknowingly... hai.. that smile.. i tink she feels isolated from her frenz.. cos all her frenz in co.. and she not in co..
Request to her and her frenz
i hope u and ur frenz dun treat me in such cold manner.. i would like another year(any years u wanna give me).. i know next year is very impt..i hope that u all will give me 1 year to break that barrier... that invisble connection wif her.. i hope that when i talk to her frens.. i hope that u all are not thinking that i like yx thats y i talk to u all... its juz that i wanna make frenz.. serious.. i do not know my heart weeps for ppl living in poverty.. sick ppl... ppl who smoke,lies... all those..
i know my heart weeps for my frenz
i do not know why but i alwaes make them understand life... when ppl know me.. they know i touch ppl lives for a reason.. i dunno why i wanna help.. i really feel is in my nature.. weird..
lets hope we(everyone) can start afresh next year..
12/28/2005 02:16:00 AM
